Frustration decreasing.... or not

So I had my beast of a Sociology exam today, and I wasn't very pleased about that. I hope I did ok, but I have a sinking feeling that it didn't come out all that well. I don't know what the problem is with me, I just can't get into this class. I mean I've been going full tilt at school work ever since I enrolled. I felt like if I didn't get an A every time then I was throwing my money away, or wasting my potential, or worst of all, it meant that I was dumber that some of the pricks around here. It's hard to keep up that level of enthusiasm for long though, and I'm just afraid that when the grades come around this time, I'm going to be screwed. Because now, anything less than an A is going to be some kind of glaring error to anyone looking at my transcript. Like wtf is wrong with this kid, he's aced everything else, but he isn't any good at sociology? He must have fucked up people skills or something, lets not hire him because he can't deal with people. Plus now that I've let one class slip, the whole dam is going to break and I'm just going to no give a shit about grades any more. I guess it's to be expected that I can't always be at the top, especially since my classes are only going to get harder. But I'm really feeling a lack of motivation, and that IS a problem. I've still got a long ass way to go before I'm done with this semester, and I have a huge mother fucking project for the same class that is due a week from today. I've done plenty of research for it, but I haven't actually started writing this shit down..... uhg

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